:/ someone draw me a picture.

I find more and more often that I hate my own line art.  I mean past hate, LOATHE it.  I loathe my own line art to the point that I don't ever want to try improving on it again because any attempt to improve ends in me getting frustrated and not any better.  I suck worse with a reference than without and I can only ever draw the same boring pose/angle.  Ironic considering that I'm not a bad colorist.

With every colored piece of artwork I get past 100 faves I feel worse about my own artwork.  None of my own characters ever got past 100 faves... hell I'm lucky if I get 30.  What makes them so much worse than my other artworks?

This is frustrating in more than one way.  I have a million awesome scenes in my head.... that I can't draw to save my life.  So in essence, I NEVER get to color what I really want to color unless someone is nice enough to take the time to do nice lines of my characters.  Which only a few people ever do and I feel bad asking them to draw/sketch any of my characters anymore because I'm sure they hear it all the time and are probably tired of me asking.  Especially since any of my attempts to draw their characters for them in return just end up uninspired and lackluster like anything else I draw.  Probably feels like an insult to them.

Not to mention in this economy no one wants to draw for free.

Which I understand :/ So I'd have to pay for a collab.  Which bites, especially since I have no money to speak of.  I also can't host any contests because let's face it, no one wants to pay 25 points even for a simple headshot.  Why?  Because my art is boring.  I won't do commissions because I can't live up to the expectation.  Sometimes I get lucky and pull a decent picture out of my ass but for what?  So people can get the misconception that I can draw anything?  Yeah any commission or request from me is hit or miss.  

So Christmas is over, my birthday is over, no more chances for me to get gift art.

So for the sake of making an upset artist/author at least a little happy, does anyone want to give my characters a shot?  I basically have a shrine for them on my front page linking to all my spotlights and all my favorite pictures of them... their personalities... even their romances... And hell, I have a literature account and even if you don't want to draw them and just want to read that's cool too, that account gets little to know attention and can be found here -->

Thanks if you consider, I understand if you don't. I would just like to have at least one of my own characters get the same attention my other colored pieces do.

And for those of you that don't want to look at my front page here are all my character spotlights.

Riley [link]
Zeph [link]
Kaida [link]
Kyna [link]
Alex [link]
Seiya [link]
Catriona [link]